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But, the real icing on the cake,Mark–the crowning jewel– was that porch. How did you do it?

Eleven-year-olds aren’t supposed to be that smart. Someone could live in there no problem. By the way, where did you get the tile for the roof?

You realize that was almost 10 years ago?. Mom was talking to her cousin and they say it’s still back there in the woods. The other kids used to party there and they’d have to chase them away.

I see you beaming. You should be. That thing was remarkable.

It’s 4 am, but I can’t stop thinking about you, and I can’t get my body to relax. My body aches from worry, Mark. I’m 15. My body shouldn’t hurt like this.

It’s really cold out. Are you some place warm? Have you eaten?

Had a psychology class this semester. We learned about mental illnesses and their symptoms. I told mom I thought you were Paranoid Schizophrenic. I told her why I thought that.

Do you just hear the voices, Mark, or do you seek them out?

You know that drawing you did when you were in kindergarten that mom had framed over the couch all those years and then later, when we moved, in her bedroom?

I used to stare at that all the time and dream one day I could do what you do.

Yeah, I know, I can draw. But, you draw in a way that is so free; so without boundaries. It’s like the inside of your brain is always too big for the places you go, the people you meet.

You need to discover the it that you know is out there somewhere and when you can’t find it, you just create it.

I haven’t seen an empty brown paper lunch bag smelling like spray paint hidden in the basement, so I know you haven’t been here.

What do you see when you huff?